28 October 2018

I am sitting in my room on a lazy Sunday afternoon (haven’t had one of these in a while – lazy Sunday afternoon I mean, not my room – my room’s always there… ha ha). I finished this week’s subtitles project this morning. My room has been semi-cleaned (the bathroom is due for a big cleaning next week, as for the dusting… bleh). My wardrobe is airing (minor mould mishap – you don’t want to know about it). So I decided to sit down and get started with what I’ve been meaning to do for a while, which is to type up my “little black book”.

My little black book is the journal I began in 2013 to document my battle with depression. Actually, “battle” is too strong a word. More like a constant, drawn-out argument which ebbed and flowed with every single day, often hour. I want to type it up for safekeeping. Also, if I ever choose to share parts of it, I will have it ready to share digitally. I typed up the first few days. I’ll continue with the rest in small batches. It’s not depressing or anything. I just get bored typing it up. The entries don’t make for riveting reading. A large part of them is checklists and me rambling on and giving myself pep talks. It’s nice to revisit the past though. Reminds me of how far I’ve come.

There is also another diary I keep which I want to type up one day. It’s my five-year diary which I bought from Japan and started early last year. It’s a smart little thing really. Right now I’m onto my second year. Each night I write down my entry, I look at the next day’s entry from last year. It’s very interesting to see how my life has changed so much in the space of exactly one year.

Talking about entries, I looked at my last entry for this blog before writing this: 1 August 2018. How fitting. Considering that the next day I would meet the man who changed my life. Life is funny that way. One day you’re blogging about a relationship that has fallen apart, and the next you begin one that is far more significant and powerful than any that you’ve ever been in. It’s wonderful. It’s beautiful. It’s incredible.

So yes, life has been good. In part because of the new relationship, but also because I’ve been working on myself. I’ve been hard at work (I got a promotion – pop the champagne!) I’ve been nurturing my friendships. And I’ve actually started exercising regularly. Until last week, I had been exercising at least every three days, and usually more often than that. I did sign up to the gym which I mentioned in my last post, though I decided not to start going yet. I will do that in January. So what I’ve been doing is swimming and running at my condo. Which works just as well. I haven’t seen any change in my body. I doubt that I will considering I’m only working out for 30 minutes at a time. But I already feel much better. Fresher. More relaxed. I did drop off this past week, but it’s not a big deal. I’ll get back on the bandwagon either today or tomorrow. Whichever works. I’m feeling quite languorous today so most likely will get back on the treadmill tomorrow.

Oh! One more thing. I started watching House of Cards again and got addicted in a big way. I just binged on the last few episodes of Season Two today (almost emptied out my phone battery) and will start on Season Three now. I think last time I saw it I actually stopped at the end of Season Two, so it will be good to finally watch the part I’ve never seen before.

On a final note, now that I’ve ticked the exercise checklist, I want to work on more subtitles. My quality has been steadily improving, and my editor has commented on that. For one of my episodes in my latest project, a comment actually read “flawless”, which of course put a wide grin on my face. But looking at my work log, I realised how much less work I get these days compared to just a couple of months ago. I actually only worked on three episodes this month, which is no good. The fewer hours do allow more relaxation time, but I think I should ramp it up a little. I don’t know if I want to – it’s so nice to have more time to myself – but I probably should.

That’s it from me today.

I hope you’re all well.



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